Its been a long time since I dabbled in blogging with one, very depressing post. I have decided that perhaps I should try it again with a more positive spin. My name is Joy How can you not be positive with a name like that and I have always been regarded as an overly positive person, but the last few years were not so for me and thus, I was somewhat "joy-less". It has taken a long time to heal, but I am healing. I still have a ways to go, but it is happening with the help of an unlikely friend.
The last few years have been all about soul searching and learning more about me. I had no choice but to do that as I was forced to be by myself quite a bit more than I was used to. My parents and brothers moved away, my boyfriend of 9 years and I broke up and my friends found themselves preoccupied with their own relationships and schedules. I still got together with my loved ones, but I was not used to being so alone with myself to actually listen to myself and get to know myself. I found that I had neglected me and some of what I truly enjoyed for a long time. I also found that many of my interests that I had shared with K for so long and my other friends and family didn't share in ,I had no one to talk to about any more. That made it hard for me as well. I still struggle with that and have had little luck in finding someone who shares in those unlikely interests.
I decided to travel.... alone. I had been on a few trips, all extremely therapeutic and wonderful experiences despite concern from loved ones that I would be kidnapped or something. I had been to Maine, Cooperstown, Mexico and finally, Alaska.
While on my last trip, August of 2007 I met a wonderful group of people from all over the world. I keep in touch with many of them regularly. One of the individuals who I keep in touch with the most and that is daily, is A. He has truly helped me to heal the most. I will write more on him and my healing in future blogs to come.
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